I find that I am constantly learning and growing in this area with each season that life brings. Whenever I think I am assured that my words are of a place of peace, encouragement, and positivity, life throws a curveball, testing what truly is in my heart. The more I walk in daily life, the more I find such powerful truth in Luke 6:45:
“A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.”
The Lord has really delivered me from a destructive lifestyle of negative self-talk when I surrendered my life to his higher plan a few years ago. I grew up with the mentality that if I punished myself first, no one else’s words or actions could touch me. Little did I know at the age of 11 that this would set me up for a road of damaging wounds, comparison, self- rejection and unrealistic expectations of self-achievement. The critical words I would feed myself continuously regarding my body, value, and incapability to be loved would nearly kill me. I starved myself from any self-affection, let alone God’s unconditional love and affection. As God opened the door to my healing from my eating disorder, I would never dream that a huge component of my healing would be from the power of my mouth. The words I choose to nourish myself with, as well as others. I am constantly learning with each life experience that if I can’t make the effort to feed myself words of encouragement, how can I do that for others?
In the story of the Lame Beggar’s healing at the temple gate called Beautiful (don’t believe that was a coincidence!) in Acts 3, it was by the WORD of the Holy Spirit through Peter that he was healed. It wasn’t because he had wealth or fine possessions, but because he had the word of God through the mighty Holy Spirit. This sources my inspiration to let my words BUILD instead of break, nourish rather than starve, create instead of tear apart, and produce life giving love to those who are in desperate need of the unconditional love that an intimate relationship with Christ brings. It’s my deepest prayer for my art to serve as an expression to encourage others to reflect on the words that are unconsciously pouring out of their mouths, and evaluate how they can change to not only love themselves, but those around them.